Alas, I've come to the conclusion that I am waaaaayyyyy to old to be obsessed with One Direction. Buying the CDs and enjoying their music is one thing. Even buying 2 books and 4 DVDs wasn't too bad. But clicking on every YouTube link I can find and following them on Twitter...now that is a little over the top. It is time to start acting my age. Especially, since I think my husband is getting a bit jealous. But hey, it's not like I'm looking at porn! I just like their music, find them charming....and, ok, they are nice to look at! Hey, I'm old, not blind!!!!
Unfortunately, bad habits are hard to break. I need to wean myself. So I decided to dedicate several blog posts to the band, write my heart out, and get it out of my system. Writing is cathartic right?
I'm sad to say, I have a very obsessive personality. If I like something, it is all I want to do. That's why I never let myself get into drinking. I knew it would turn into a big problem. I used to follow a local band, The Badlees, back in 1992. I knew where 3 of them lived and did drive bys. Believe me, this isn't my first rodeo!
I should start by addressing what started my obsession. Sheer boredom and loneliness. It is true. Yes, I have been married 20 and a 1/2 years. Yes, I have a 17 year old son. Yes, I am lonely. My son spends the majority of his time back in his room on Skype or playing games online with his friends. I love my husband dearly, but he spends most of his time either watching TV, going to shoots, or doing other things that fall within his interests. I spend a lot of what little free time I have outside of work either watching shows he likes on TV, reading, or on my laptop. It gets boring after a while. :(
As I mentioned in a previous post, after falling in love with "The Story of My Life" and watching the video on YouTube, I started clicking on other One Direction videos. It wasn't long before I found that I adore 1D's music. The videos are fun and upbeat. And their interviews touched my heart with evidence of their friendship and camaraderie. I loved watching the segments from the XFactor when they were first starting out as a group and how close they seemed to grow in such a short period of time. But most of all, I loved how sweet they all were, especially Harry Styles.
Well, this gave me something to focus my attention on. And it was fun! I haven't had this much fun in years. The more I read and watched, the more I wanted to learn. And the music....it really speaks to me. I love it. I mean I really really love it. I drive my son crazy singing their songs over and over again. I wake up in the middle of the night with different 1D songs running through my head. It is crazy!!!
Unfortunately, joining Twitter was a mistake. I kept reading about how all the members kept up with their fans via Twitter, and since they aren't as active on Facebook, I thought I'd give a whirl. Well, it is fun watching them banter back and forth with each other an interact with their fans, but some things I read didn't thrill me. Plus, I found it hurts my feelings if they don't respond to my tweets. Go ahead...call me a whackadoodle! I certainly did!!! First, why a 44 year old woman is trying to interact with a bunch of young twentysomethings is beyond me. But then to get my nose out of joint when I'm ignored--seriously!!! I need help!!!! Not to mention that I only have 19---no 20, wait, now it is back to 19--followers, only 2 of which I know. That makes me seem even more pathetic.
I don't plan to quit liking 1D or give up listening to their music. But I need my obsession to be reduced to an admiration. Hopefully writing about it will help! But it might take a while. Well, more later. I have to go check out Twitter now!!! ;)
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