October 10, 2015
I have been a customer of AT & T for years and have always been very
happy with the products and service, until today. A year ago, when we
were considering switching to Straight Talk to save money, we stopped in
an AT & T store. The salesman was so convincing that instead of
saving money, we actually purchased 3 new phones that came with
a 99 cent tablet each.
When I expressed my concern over how much the
money the monthly bill was going to cost, the salesman assured me
REPEATEDLY that we can drop the tablet lines ANYTIME WITH NO TERMINATION
FEE. NONE.
The 1 tablet is used heavily but the other 2 are barely
used, so I decided to drop 2 of the tablet lines. Low and behold, I'm
told there is a $102 early termination fee. I explained the salesman
assured me repeatedly that this was only for the phones, which I wasn't
cancelling. The first gentleman said he would transfer me to the
cancellation line to see if they could do anything about it. Instead, he
transferred me into the voicemail of my home phone. The second person
told me there was nothing that can be done, that I she can cancel the
lines but I'll be charged $102.
I said to leave the lines in force but
that I am very unhappy with AT & T at this time. If a salesperson
makes a promise, regardless of whether or not he is mistaken, that
promise should be honored. I appreciated the fact that she was willing
to tell her supervisor that training is needed at the store in question,
but that really doesn't help me. The only reason we bought the tablets
was because we were assured we could cancel anytime. So educating the
sales staff now isn't really going to help me while I am making payments
on something I don't use.
Regretfully,
A very unhappy AT & T customer
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I posted the above message on the AT & T Facebook page today. I doubt it will do any good. But I'm ever hopeful.
UPDATE: AT & T responded to my message, immediately, asking for my contact information. About an hour later a gentleman called and said he can't waive the activation fee, but to keep the tablets on the bill and he dropped our base rate by $20. The tablets were running us $23.06 a month, so this is fine with me. Thanks to Spencer, my faith in AT & T has been restored.
Thursday, October 1, 2015
Sunday, September 20, 2015
The Fat Lady Has Sung. #Whole30
September 20, 2015
Well, the fat lady has sung and unfortunately said fat lady is me. While I did manage to stick to the Whole 30 throughout the first 30 days and the first part of the reintroduction phase, I blew it the day I reintroduced dairy. I couldn't wait to eat ice cream. I was all set. So I went to Mexico Market where I had a coupon for a free small cone or dish and got a dish of peanut butter ice cream. Ice cream is dairy, after all. Unfortunately, the peanut butter is not. Peanuts are a legume. I shouldn't have had the peanut butter. Crap on a cracker!
Then, I had a really bad day and came home and someone totally ticked me off. So I said screw it and ate chocolate. Dumb dumb dumb. A mistake was one thing but giving up was entirely was a different story. I'm so mad at myself.
But here is what I learned. I can stick to the 30 days. And I have learned from the mistakes I made the first time through the plan. I'll know what mistakes to avoid next time. And I did lose 18 pounds, which is awesome.
So I'm going to try to eat mostly unprocessed foods and allow myself other items in moderation. Then, after the holidays and hopefully when my stress factors level off, I plan to do the program again. But this time, I'm going to make some of the recipes from the book and I'm going to make sure to have food ready ahead of time.
This was not a failure. I have learned from my mistakes. Next time, it will be better.
Well, the fat lady has sung and unfortunately said fat lady is me. While I did manage to stick to the Whole 30 throughout the first 30 days and the first part of the reintroduction phase, I blew it the day I reintroduced dairy. I couldn't wait to eat ice cream. I was all set. So I went to Mexico Market where I had a coupon for a free small cone or dish and got a dish of peanut butter ice cream. Ice cream is dairy, after all. Unfortunately, the peanut butter is not. Peanuts are a legume. I shouldn't have had the peanut butter. Crap on a cracker!
Then, I had a really bad day and came home and someone totally ticked me off. So I said screw it and ate chocolate. Dumb dumb dumb. A mistake was one thing but giving up was entirely was a different story. I'm so mad at myself.
But here is what I learned. I can stick to the 30 days. And I have learned from the mistakes I made the first time through the plan. I'll know what mistakes to avoid next time. And I did lose 18 pounds, which is awesome.
So I'm going to try to eat mostly unprocessed foods and allow myself other items in moderation. Then, after the holidays and hopefully when my stress factors level off, I plan to do the program again. But this time, I'm going to make some of the recipes from the book and I'm going to make sure to have food ready ahead of time.
This was not a failure. I have learned from my mistakes. Next time, it will be better.
Saturday, September 12, 2015
Day 32 & 33: ARGHHHHH! #Whole30
September 12, 2015
I'm so disgusted with myself right now. Today wasn't a good day.
First, I got a call from my daddy telling me he can't come home from the hospital today, as scheduled. Last night, his pulse dropped from 90 to 17. The doctors had to determine whether his medicine needed tweaked or if the problem was that the surgery threw off the electrical impulses of his heart, which isn't uncommon with aortic value replacements. They put him back in CICU and put a line from his groin to his heart. They determined it was the electrical impulses being off and that he now needs a pacemaker. Since it is Saturday, there was no one there to do the surgery. So he will be in the hospital until at least Tuesday, since they will place the pacemaker on Monday.
Then, I went to help my husband clean out his dad's workshop. My father-in-law was diagnosed with vascular dementia in September of 2014. He and my mother-in-law moved out of their house and into an apartment last March. The house is now for sale and the workshop has been sold and is being moved off the property on September 15. So my husband has been working to clean out the shop, which was a hoarder's delight. Well, I went to help, which was no fun in and of itself. But then my mother-in-law and husband got into it, which just made the whole situation even worse.
When we were finally finished for the day, I went to Walmart to get groceries. Since I'm in the reintroduction phase, I still can't have legumes (again), dairy (yet), and gluten (yet), but today I reintroduced non-gluten grains. So I grabbed a Lean Cuisine with Chicken and Rice (yes it was processed but I was in a hurry). Also, since I wanted to run out to see my brother this evening, I just grabbed a bag of beef jerky to eat on the way home so I could wait to eat supper until after I got home from my brother's. What is beef jerky? Dried beef...so obviously no dairy, legumes or gluten, right? Wrong! After I was already eating it, I thought to check the ingredients. What does it contain? Wheat. Wheat! In beef jerky!!! Argh!
I'm so disgusted right now. But I'm going to try to stick to the rest of the reintroduction phase. Since I never got the burst of energy and my skin never cleared up, I don't think I would have been able to ascertain what foods were truly causing my problems, anyway. But I want to stick it out.
After the holidays, I plan to start the entire program again. Hopefully, when my stress level has decreased, I will be able to get the full benefits of the program. Hopefully......
I'm so disgusted with myself right now. Today wasn't a good day.
First, I got a call from my daddy telling me he can't come home from the hospital today, as scheduled. Last night, his pulse dropped from 90 to 17. The doctors had to determine whether his medicine needed tweaked or if the problem was that the surgery threw off the electrical impulses of his heart, which isn't uncommon with aortic value replacements. They put him back in CICU and put a line from his groin to his heart. They determined it was the electrical impulses being off and that he now needs a pacemaker. Since it is Saturday, there was no one there to do the surgery. So he will be in the hospital until at least Tuesday, since they will place the pacemaker on Monday.
Then, I went to help my husband clean out his dad's workshop. My father-in-law was diagnosed with vascular dementia in September of 2014. He and my mother-in-law moved out of their house and into an apartment last March. The house is now for sale and the workshop has been sold and is being moved off the property on September 15. So my husband has been working to clean out the shop, which was a hoarder's delight. Well, I went to help, which was no fun in and of itself. But then my mother-in-law and husband got into it, which just made the whole situation even worse.
When we were finally finished for the day, I went to Walmart to get groceries. Since I'm in the reintroduction phase, I still can't have legumes (again), dairy (yet), and gluten (yet), but today I reintroduced non-gluten grains. So I grabbed a Lean Cuisine with Chicken and Rice (yes it was processed but I was in a hurry). Also, since I wanted to run out to see my brother this evening, I just grabbed a bag of beef jerky to eat on the way home so I could wait to eat supper until after I got home from my brother's. What is beef jerky? Dried beef...so obviously no dairy, legumes or gluten, right? Wrong! After I was already eating it, I thought to check the ingredients. What does it contain? Wheat. Wheat! In beef jerky!!! Argh!
I'm so disgusted right now. But I'm going to try to stick to the rest of the reintroduction phase. Since I never got the burst of energy and my skin never cleared up, I don't think I would have been able to ascertain what foods were truly causing my problems, anyway. But I want to stick it out.
After the holidays, I plan to start the entire program again. Hopefully, when my stress level has decreased, I will be able to get the full benefits of the program. Hopefully......
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Days 31 and 31: It Ain't Over Yet! #Whole30
September 10, 2015
Yesterday, I was allowed to reintroduce legumes. Did you know, peanuts aren't actually nuts? They are legumes. So I had celery with hummus and an apple with peanut butter. They were wonderfully delicious! Unfortunately, I was so tired from not sleeping much lately, before I ate these items, that I couldn't tell if they effected me or not.
Now I'm back to only Whole30 approved items for today and tomorrow. Then I can reintroduce non-gluten grains. I think I'll be having oatmeal for breakfast and brown rice with supper. Can't wait!!
Yesterday, I was allowed to reintroduce legumes. Did you know, peanuts aren't actually nuts? They are legumes. So I had celery with hummus and an apple with peanut butter. They were wonderfully delicious! Unfortunately, I was so tired from not sleeping much lately, before I ate these items, that I couldn't tell if they effected me or not.
Now I'm back to only Whole30 approved items for today and tomorrow. Then I can reintroduce non-gluten grains. I think I'll be having oatmeal for breakfast and brown rice with supper. Can't wait!!
Tuesday, September 8, 2015
Days 29 & 30: Almost 18 lbs gone!!! #Whole30
September 8, 2015
Woo hoo!!! It is Day 30 and I'm down almost 18 lbs! What a feeling! I am so glad I did this. I get to start reintroducing food tomorrow---peanut butter and hummus, here I come!
I really wonder if I would have gotten the energy benefits if life wasn't so stressful right now---new job, son starting college, my dad having heart surgery (today, actually--he is doing well, by the way, praise God!). Maybe doing this kept me from feeling even more tired than I would have been otherwise.
I can definitely say it is the right way to eat. I know I am treating my body the way it deserves to be treated. I don't want to go back to subsisting on sandwiches.
While I may not be quite as strict in my day to day life as I was during the plan, I do want to stick to eating mostly whole foods. If I can tolerate gluten free grains, I would like to add brown rice. If I can tolerate dairy, I would like to add Greek yogurt. But I really think this way of eating is so beneficial.
I finally got my blood work results back from a draw that was done 2 days prior to my starting The Whole 30. Guess what? Inflammation! I'm anxious to have the test done again to see if the inflammation is now reduced significantly.
My "plan" is to start using a workout tape tomorrow morning. Now that I'm losing weight again, finally, I need to up the ante! Go me!!!
I really wonder if I would have gotten the energy benefits if life wasn't so stressful right now---new job, son starting college, my dad having heart surgery (today, actually--he is doing well, by the way, praise God!). Maybe doing this kept me from feeling even more tired than I would have been otherwise.
I can definitely say it is the right way to eat. I know I am treating my body the way it deserves to be treated. I don't want to go back to subsisting on sandwiches.
While I may not be quite as strict in my day to day life as I was during the plan, I do want to stick to eating mostly whole foods. If I can tolerate gluten free grains, I would like to add brown rice. If I can tolerate dairy, I would like to add Greek yogurt. But I really think this way of eating is so beneficial.
I finally got my blood work results back from a draw that was done 2 days prior to my starting The Whole 30. Guess what? Inflammation! I'm anxious to have the test done again to see if the inflammation is now reduced significantly.
My "plan" is to start using a workout tape tomorrow morning. Now that I'm losing weight again, finally, I need to up the ante! Go me!!!
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Days 27 & 28: Home Stretch #Whole30
September 6, 2015
Two more days before I can start the reintroduction and it can't come soon enough. I am desperate for something different. I'm going to have peanut butter celery for breakfast and hummus with celery for lunch. I can't wait. I'm so excited.
Everyday, I still want to quit. Every. Single. Day. I really thought this would get easier. And in a way it has. I'm not as hungry, most days. But days like today, I'm eating everything in sight because nothing is killing the cravings for something different. Of course, I'm in a REALLY bad mood, so that isn't helping.
I am praying I can stick it out the next two days then the 12 days that follow for the reintroduction. Then, I'm hoping that I only eat the "forbidden" foods in moderation. I know this is a healthier way to eat. But it is expensive and boring and a lot of work. It is so much easier to grab a yogurt or a protein bar while running out the door to work. Again, I think if I would have gotten the burst of energy and felt awesome, it would be easier to take. But I started this during a stressful period in my life, so those things just didn't happen.
Maybe I'll try the entire plan again sometime down the road when live isn't as crazy. Of course, we are never guaranteed smooth sailing, are we?
Two more days before I can start the reintroduction and it can't come soon enough. I am desperate for something different. I'm going to have peanut butter celery for breakfast and hummus with celery for lunch. I can't wait. I'm so excited.
Everyday, I still want to quit. Every. Single. Day. I really thought this would get easier. And in a way it has. I'm not as hungry, most days. But days like today, I'm eating everything in sight because nothing is killing the cravings for something different. Of course, I'm in a REALLY bad mood, so that isn't helping.
I am praying I can stick it out the next two days then the 12 days that follow for the reintroduction. Then, I'm hoping that I only eat the "forbidden" foods in moderation. I know this is a healthier way to eat. But it is expensive and boring and a lot of work. It is so much easier to grab a yogurt or a protein bar while running out the door to work. Again, I think if I would have gotten the burst of energy and felt awesome, it would be easier to take. But I started this during a stressful period in my life, so those things just didn't happen.
Maybe I'll try the entire plan again sometime down the road when live isn't as crazy. Of course, we are never guaranteed smooth sailing, are we?
Friday, September 4, 2015
Days 22, 23, 24, 25, and 26: Not As Hungry, But Still Want Cake #Whole30
September 4, 2015
I started my new job on Tuesday and I love it. But life has been very stressful with learning new responsibilities, daddy still being sick, and my brother having health issues, as well as the usual stress over bills and such. Strangely, I'm not feeling the need to stress eat like I used to do. Is it because I'm happy at work, or because of the Whole 30? Who knows. But I'm glad I'm not as hungry as before.
I am finding, though, that I still have a great desire to quit the plan. I know, I know. I've come too far to quit. But I'm sooooo sick of meat and nuts. And the fruits I enjoy most are no longer in season. I did buy some apples today and when I can add peanut butter in 5 days, that will be great. Of course, I have to take it away again the next day until I finish reintroducing everything else. Oh well. I can do this.
In fact, I really don't want to go back to eating the way I used to eat. Don't get me wrong. I want to add back dairy, legumes, grains, etc. But not in large quantities. I want to keep my mainstays protein, vegetables and fruits. It is much more healthy. But I don't plan to be as strict. Everything in moderation.
I really wish I could get my family to eat this way. If we all did it, it would be so much easier. Watching them eat chips, ice cream, and cookies hasn't been easy. A that full gallon of milk in the refrigerator isn't helping either. And I'm not a big milk drinker. But I'm so sick of water water water. I know, I need to put on my big girl panties and just drink it.
I'm really looking forward to weighing myself. I actually almost had my son weigh me and just tell me if I lost more than 5 lbs. I didn't, though. But
I am weighing myself on Day 30. Enough is enough. Seriously!
As much as I have complained, I'm glad I undertook this journey. It has been good for me and I hope it will help me adopt a new way of eating and a new plan for the future. Now if I can just bring myself to start using that workout tape!! Maybe when it isn't so hot? ;)
Sunday, August 30, 2015
Day 21: I Scream You Scream We All Scream For Ice Cream, But I'm Having Steak #Whole30
August 30, 2015
This week's 3rd flavor at The Creme Stop is my favorite: peanut butter. Ice cream commercials are all over the TV. I'm hot, grumpy, nervous, worried, and stressed and I WANT ICE CREAM. But I settled for tomatoes, cucumbers, and diced steak dressed with O&V. It wasn't what I wanted, but it was good and filling.
Today at church, my friend, Heidi, complimented my appearance. Then my mom raved over the fact that it is obvious that I have lost weight. While I'm not having that burst of energy I was counting on, I am finding it isn't as hard to get out of bed in the morning, and it is harder to stay asleep while napping. Now, if only my skin would clear up.
I know this is worth it. I know I'll be proud of myself when I make it to day 30. Everyday is a struggle, I won't lie. Every day I try to find a reason to throw in the towel. But I'm glad I didn't. It will be worth it in the end.
This week's 3rd flavor at The Creme Stop is my favorite: peanut butter. Ice cream commercials are all over the TV. I'm hot, grumpy, nervous, worried, and stressed and I WANT ICE CREAM. But I settled for tomatoes, cucumbers, and diced steak dressed with O&V. It wasn't what I wanted, but it was good and filling.
Today at church, my friend, Heidi, complimented my appearance. Then my mom raved over the fact that it is obvious that I have lost weight. While I'm not having that burst of energy I was counting on, I am finding it isn't as hard to get out of bed in the morning, and it is harder to stay asleep while napping. Now, if only my skin would clear up.
I know this is worth it. I know I'll be proud of myself when I make it to day 30. Everyday is a struggle, I won't lie. Every day I try to find a reason to throw in the towel. But I'm glad I didn't. It will be worth it in the end.
Saturday, August 29, 2015
Days 19 and 20: Isn't It Over Yet? #Whole30
August 29, 2015
Weekends on Whole30 are the worst! I want the normal weekend foods: pizza, chips, ice cream, Breakfast burritos, donuts. Instead, I ate cashews for breakfast because once again I didn't feel like cooking. I had a chicken chopped salad at Subway for lunch. It was good, but it needed cheese and pickles. Plus Ranch dressing instead of oil and vinegar would have rocked. Dinner was beef, cabbage and potatoes dressed with garlic, oil, and vinegar. It was good, but would have been better with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter spray instead of O&V.
I feel good about myself for eating whole foods. But I'm really bored. Ten more days + the reintroduction faze is a long time. Better than 30, but still.
The hardest part of this is eating healthy during this stressful time in my life. My brother and dad's health issues, money concerns, leaving a job I've been at 12 years and starting a totally new career, as well as my own health issues makes me want to stress eat big time. But I guess if I can stick to it in times of stress, I can do it anytime. That's a good feeling.
Weekends on Whole30 are the worst! I want the normal weekend foods: pizza, chips, ice cream, Breakfast burritos, donuts. Instead, I ate cashews for breakfast because once again I didn't feel like cooking. I had a chicken chopped salad at Subway for lunch. It was good, but it needed cheese and pickles. Plus Ranch dressing instead of oil and vinegar would have rocked. Dinner was beef, cabbage and potatoes dressed with garlic, oil, and vinegar. It was good, but would have been better with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter spray instead of O&V.
I feel good about myself for eating whole foods. But I'm really bored. Ten more days + the reintroduction faze is a long time. Better than 30, but still.
The hardest part of this is eating healthy during this stressful time in my life. My brother and dad's health issues, money concerns, leaving a job I've been at 12 years and starting a totally new career, as well as my own health issues makes me want to stress eat big time. But I guess if I can stick to it in times of stress, I can do it anytime. That's a good feeling.
Thursday, August 27, 2015
Days 15, 16, 17, and 18: Down Hill Slope #Whole30
August 27, 2015
I'm over half way there now. I hasn't been easy, but I'm glad I've stuck with it. Still no changes, except in my weight, though. I can tell I've lost some...not sure how much since I'm not allowed to weigh myself. But my skin still isn't clear and I'm still tired a lot. Of course, in all fairness, with the stress of my dad being in the hospital and needing his aortic valve replaced, maybe my fatigue is worse then it would be otherwise.
I'll tell you....with all the problems this week it was really hard to stick with the plan. Especially since I was taken to lunch 4 times, by my wonderful friends, to celebrate my new job. I got salads each time and all were delicious. And staying on plan made it taste even better (no guilty aftertaste). Then, my co-workers had a snack day at work for my friend, Margie's birthday and my farewell. It stretched over 2 days. It was hard, but I didn't eat anything.
So 12 more days, then I can slowly start reintroducing food to see how it effects me. It will be so nice to just have some cheese on my salad. Seriously...it's the little things....
I'm over half way there now. I hasn't been easy, but I'm glad I've stuck with it. Still no changes, except in my weight, though. I can tell I've lost some...not sure how much since I'm not allowed to weigh myself. But my skin still isn't clear and I'm still tired a lot. Of course, in all fairness, with the stress of my dad being in the hospital and needing his aortic valve replaced, maybe my fatigue is worse then it would be otherwise.
I'll tell you....with all the problems this week it was really hard to stick with the plan. Especially since I was taken to lunch 4 times, by my wonderful friends, to celebrate my new job. I got salads each time and all were delicious. And staying on plan made it taste even better (no guilty aftertaste). Then, my co-workers had a snack day at work for my friend, Margie's birthday and my farewell. It stretched over 2 days. It was hard, but I didn't eat anything.
So 12 more days, then I can slowly start reintroducing food to see how it effects me. It will be so nice to just have some cheese on my salad. Seriously...it's the little things....
Sunday, August 23, 2015
Day 14: Sixteen More Days????!!!!! #Whole30
August 23, 2015
I really want to quit. Really really really badly. If I hadn't told people I was doing this and if it weren't for this blog, I would. It just doesn't seem worth it right now. Maybe when it is over, I'll feel differently. But right now I'm having a big ole pity party. I hope I can do 16 more days of this. Not looking forward to it, though.
Saturday, August 22, 2015
Days 12 & 13: Can I Give Up Yet? #Whole30
August 22, 2015
Unfortunately, the last few days have gone back to being rough. I don't know if it is the plan, itself, or the stress level in my life. But I am not happy with this plan at all today.
I know I have too much on my plate (pardon the pun) right now. Starting a new job on 9/1, my son starting college 8/24, my husband needs hearing aids to the tune of $4500+, the heating element went out in our dryer, Paul's truck needs a new rocker panel, trying to decide on insurance plans, my brother's ongoing health issues, etc etc. Then, yesterday, I got a call at work that my dad fell and was going to the ER. Well, he was admitted for observation, which has now extended to a stay until at least Monday, when they can do a nuclear stress test. They think he has angina, but might need to have a heart cath, stents, or bypass surgery. Dad is terrified. Mom was to have knee replacement surgery 9/11, but I believe that is going to be put on hold. So I'm upset and stressed and just want to eat something. Yeah..I know..its not all about me...but I can't help how I feel.
Going home from the hospital last night, Paul had me drive him to Dunkin Donuts for coffee. He proceeded to eat 2 chocolate iced donuts in front of me. If that isn't grounds for divorce, I don't know what is!!!
The last thing I want to focus on right now is eating healthy. But I stuck to the plan today, in spite of my desire to quit. I only had time for a banana for breakfast, but I got a chicken chopped salad with oil and vinegar at Subway for lunch. After coming home from the hospital, tonight, I made Paul and Jonathan pulled pork barbeque sandwiches and macaroni and cheese. I saluted tomatoes, zucchini and mushrooms in olive oil and garlic and poured it over scrambled eggs. I still want pizza.
So, I hope tomorrow will bring a better attitude. Cause right now I really want to say screw it and give up. :(
Unfortunately, the last few days have gone back to being rough. I don't know if it is the plan, itself, or the stress level in my life. But I am not happy with this plan at all today.
I know I have too much on my plate (pardon the pun) right now. Starting a new job on 9/1, my son starting college 8/24, my husband needs hearing aids to the tune of $4500+, the heating element went out in our dryer, Paul's truck needs a new rocker panel, trying to decide on insurance plans, my brother's ongoing health issues, etc etc. Then, yesterday, I got a call at work that my dad fell and was going to the ER. Well, he was admitted for observation, which has now extended to a stay until at least Monday, when they can do a nuclear stress test. They think he has angina, but might need to have a heart cath, stents, or bypass surgery. Dad is terrified. Mom was to have knee replacement surgery 9/11, but I believe that is going to be put on hold. So I'm upset and stressed and just want to eat something. Yeah..I know..its not all about me...but I can't help how I feel.
Going home from the hospital last night, Paul had me drive him to Dunkin Donuts for coffee. He proceeded to eat 2 chocolate iced donuts in front of me. If that isn't grounds for divorce, I don't know what is!!!
The last thing I want to focus on right now is eating healthy. But I stuck to the plan today, in spite of my desire to quit. I only had time for a banana for breakfast, but I got a chicken chopped salad with oil and vinegar at Subway for lunch. After coming home from the hospital, tonight, I made Paul and Jonathan pulled pork barbeque sandwiches and macaroni and cheese. I saluted tomatoes, zucchini and mushrooms in olive oil and garlic and poured it over scrambled eggs. I still want pizza.
So, I hope tomorrow will bring a better attitude. Cause right now I really want to say screw it and give up. :(
Thursday, August 20, 2015
Days 9, 10, and 11: Bored But Better #Whole30
August 20, 2015
Fortunately, the last 3 days haven't been as rough. Honestly, I'm still bored with my lack of choices, but I have been so busy that I really haven't cared whether I eat or not. And that is a major first. However, I'm not certain if it is just because I've been so busy or if this is Whole 30 at its best. I guess we shall see.
I accepted a new job offer on Monday. It is very exciting and I wanted desperately to go out to eat to celebrate. I really wanted to quit Whole 30 and just start over again in a couple of weeks. But I didn't and I'm so proud of myself. My dear friend, Sue, took me out for lunch today and, again, I wanted so badly to go off plan. But I got a grilled chicken salad with oil/vinegar on the side, and it was delicious. The taste of victory over my desires was even better.
It will be a challenge to stay on track over the next week as several of my co-workers want to take me out to eat before I leave. But I'll stick to the plan. My health is more important then my stomach. Hey, maybe that should be my new mantra. I'll get it printed up on some T-shirts. ;)
Monday, August 17, 2015
Day 8: I Think I Can, I Think I Can....But Do I Want To? #Whole30
August 17, 2015
Today, I really wanted to give up. Well....not give up...postpone. I wanted to chuck it for now and start again in October. Maybe, November. But I didn't. I stayed on track. It wasn't easy because I am so sick of chicken right now I could cry--and I just made up a big batch of chicken. Fortunately, I'm doing a beef roast in the Crockpot on Wednesday, so that will change things up again. I believe I'll boil some shrimp this week, as well.
I THINK my pants were loser today. I'm not 100% certain, but I think they were a little baggy around the belly. I certainly hope so. If I can't have bread, I'd darn well better have lost some weight!
I keep having to remind myself why I'm doing this. I want to be healthy. I want to feel good about myself. Yes, eating something off plan would be delicious for a minute, but I would feel like a failure afterwards. I just isn't worth it. I can do this. I think I can. No, I KNOW I CAN.
Today, I really wanted to give up. Well....not give up...postpone. I wanted to chuck it for now and start again in October. Maybe, November. But I didn't. I stayed on track. It wasn't easy because I am so sick of chicken right now I could cry--and I just made up a big batch of chicken. Fortunately, I'm doing a beef roast in the Crockpot on Wednesday, so that will change things up again. I believe I'll boil some shrimp this week, as well.
I THINK my pants were loser today. I'm not 100% certain, but I think they were a little baggy around the belly. I certainly hope so. If I can't have bread, I'd darn well better have lost some weight!
I keep having to remind myself why I'm doing this. I want to be healthy. I want to feel good about myself. Yes, eating something off plan would be delicious for a minute, but I would feel like a failure afterwards. I just isn't worth it. I can do this. I think I can. No, I KNOW I CAN.
Sunday, August 16, 2015
Day 7: I've Got A Bad Attitude! #Whole30
August 16, 2015
I don't know if I'm in a bad mood because it is hot or because I'm getting irritated with the crap going on in my life or because I'm feeling deprived of eating like a normal person. Maybe all three. I'm feeling angry and antsy and annoyed. All I want is a big piece of chocolate cake, a McDonald's unsweetened iced tea with 7 Splenda, a bag of Hartley's chips, and a white pizza with spinach and tomatoes. And ice cream. A honking big-hineyed bowl of ice cream. But I settled for chicken saluted in olive oil and garlic, with Brussel sprouts and mushrooms cooked in chicken stock. It was very good, but certainly not what I wanted.
I can't believe I have 23 left before I can even attempt to add anything back into my diet. I know I can do this but it would be so easy to say "screw it" and give up. I won't. I can't. I need to do this for my health. I need to do it for my self-confidence. I know 23 more days is just speck compared to the rest of my life (hopefully), but I'm really struggling today.
It seems like everything on Facebook and every commercial on TV is for a food I can't have. No wonder America is full of fat, unhealthy people. All we are surrounded by 24/7 is junk food. Amazingly delicious, highly unnutritious junk food. It is ridiculous. Not to mention everything we do revolves around food.....weddings, funerals, church services, shopping trips, travel, work functions....you name it...food is involved. And it is rarely a fruit and vegetable tray.
Sigh....such is life. I guess it is time to put on my big girl panties and deal with it. As Scarlet O'Hara would say, "Tomorrow is another day".
I don't know if I'm in a bad mood because it is hot or because I'm getting irritated with the crap going on in my life or because I'm feeling deprived of eating like a normal person. Maybe all three. I'm feeling angry and antsy and annoyed. All I want is a big piece of chocolate cake, a McDonald's unsweetened iced tea with 7 Splenda, a bag of Hartley's chips, and a white pizza with spinach and tomatoes. And ice cream. A honking big-hineyed bowl of ice cream. But I settled for chicken saluted in olive oil and garlic, with Brussel sprouts and mushrooms cooked in chicken stock. It was very good, but certainly not what I wanted.
I can't believe I have 23 left before I can even attempt to add anything back into my diet. I know I can do this but it would be so easy to say "screw it" and give up. I won't. I can't. I need to do this for my health. I need to do it for my self-confidence. I know 23 more days is just speck compared to the rest of my life (hopefully), but I'm really struggling today.
It seems like everything on Facebook and every commercial on TV is for a food I can't have. No wonder America is full of fat, unhealthy people. All we are surrounded by 24/7 is junk food. Amazingly delicious, highly unnutritious junk food. It is ridiculous. Not to mention everything we do revolves around food.....weddings, funerals, church services, shopping trips, travel, work functions....you name it...food is involved. And it is rarely a fruit and vegetable tray.
Sigh....such is life. I guess it is time to put on my big girl panties and deal with it. As Scarlet O'Hara would say, "Tomorrow is another day".
Saturday, August 15, 2015
Days 5 and 6: This Sucks! But Not Really...... #Whole30
August 15, 2015
The last 2 days have been tough. Not because I was starving or because I was craving anything terribly, but because of feeling so restricted.
Yesterday, I had a horrible day at work. I just wanted to grab some chocolate or chips, anything, to emotionally eat away my anger and frustration. But I couldn't. In fact, there isn't 1 single thing in the vending machines I can eat. I guess that is a good thing. And I'm proud of my staying true to the plan. But it was hard.
This morning, I woke up and just wanted to get going. Every Saturday, I run to Walmart, about 20 minutes away, to get groceries. I just wanted to get there and get back. Unfortunately, I was out of fruit and nuts, and all cooked protein, so I couldn't just grab something and go. So after pouting a few minutes, I got up and made myself some scrabbled eggs with tomatoes and mushrooms. And you know what? It was wonderful. I'm so glad I took the time to make it. And my son was thrilled to get a cooked breakfast for a change, sans the tomatoes and mushrooms.
Afterwards, I ran all over town taking care of errands, then ran to Lewistown. Once again, I was unable to find almond butter without added sugar (I really need to make a point of stopping at some of the other shops my friends told me might carry it), but I was able to find where they keep raw nuts. They don't have a large variety of nuts without added peanut oil. But I was able to find macadamia nuts, pecans, and almonds that were the only ingredient listed on the packaging.
Then came my big disappointment. Tuna. I have been eating tuna since day one. It is cheap, versatile and filling. The ingredients listed are tuna, water, salt and vegetable broth. Unfortunately, I never noticed the warning "contains soy" on it before. I'm not supposed to have soy. I'm guessing it comes from the vegetable broth....which could contain corn, as well, now that I think about it. Oh dear. I looked at almost every brand of tuna that they carry and all listed the same thing. Vegetable broth and soy. Fortunately, a friend reassured me that the soy might actually be listed on the package because the tuna is processed in a plant that processes other items that contain soy, though it didn't say "may". My mom suggested rinsing the tuna before using it from now on, just to rinse off/dilute any added ingredients. I just can't quite using it, because it is one of the few things I can truly afford in bulk. So I'm hoping that it won't cause me not to get the full results and benefits of the plan.
Grocery shopping was difficult. I keep seeing all these foods that I just felt I "had" to have. Pizza, bread, chips, wraps, yogurt, pudding...the list goes on. Plus the bread baking at Subway was killing me. But I persevered. I stayed the course. I didn't buy myself anything off plan.
When I got home, I still wasn't hungry. So later in the day, I finally ate a banana, some blueberries, and some macadamia nuts. I love this combination. For supper, I poached some whiting fish and sprinkled it with my favorite--garlic salt. Yes, I have a problem. I need to branch out and try some new seasonings. I did try something new, though. I have yet to clarify my butter and I wanted a sweet potato. So I sliced it and saluted it lightly in olive oil. Then I spread it out on a plate, covered it in plastic wrap, and microwaved it for 5 minutes. It was perfect! I didn't need to put anything on it. I only managed to eat 1/2 my supper, since I had a late lunch, so I'll save the rest for breakfast tomorrow.
I will say, when I can't mindlessly eat anything I desire, I find I'm not hungry all the time. So I guess the terrible hunger I experienced pre-Whole30 was really in my head. Well...in all fairness, I might truly have been hungry because all the empty carbs I was feasting on weren't keeping me full. The protein I'm eating now really does fill me up faster and sticks with me longer.
So while it sucks that I can't have what I want, when I want, and how I want it, I know what I am doing is good for me, mind and body. So it is worth it.
The last 2 days have been tough. Not because I was starving or because I was craving anything terribly, but because of feeling so restricted.
Yesterday, I had a horrible day at work. I just wanted to grab some chocolate or chips, anything, to emotionally eat away my anger and frustration. But I couldn't. In fact, there isn't 1 single thing in the vending machines I can eat. I guess that is a good thing. And I'm proud of my staying true to the plan. But it was hard.
This morning, I woke up and just wanted to get going. Every Saturday, I run to Walmart, about 20 minutes away, to get groceries. I just wanted to get there and get back. Unfortunately, I was out of fruit and nuts, and all cooked protein, so I couldn't just grab something and go. So after pouting a few minutes, I got up and made myself some scrabbled eggs with tomatoes and mushrooms. And you know what? It was wonderful. I'm so glad I took the time to make it. And my son was thrilled to get a cooked breakfast for a change, sans the tomatoes and mushrooms.
Afterwards, I ran all over town taking care of errands, then ran to Lewistown. Once again, I was unable to find almond butter without added sugar (I really need to make a point of stopping at some of the other shops my friends told me might carry it), but I was able to find where they keep raw nuts. They don't have a large variety of nuts without added peanut oil. But I was able to find macadamia nuts, pecans, and almonds that were the only ingredient listed on the packaging.
Then came my big disappointment. Tuna. I have been eating tuna since day one. It is cheap, versatile and filling. The ingredients listed are tuna, water, salt and vegetable broth. Unfortunately, I never noticed the warning "contains soy" on it before. I'm not supposed to have soy. I'm guessing it comes from the vegetable broth....which could contain corn, as well, now that I think about it. Oh dear. I looked at almost every brand of tuna that they carry and all listed the same thing. Vegetable broth and soy. Fortunately, a friend reassured me that the soy might actually be listed on the package because the tuna is processed in a plant that processes other items that contain soy, though it didn't say "may". My mom suggested rinsing the tuna before using it from now on, just to rinse off/dilute any added ingredients. I just can't quite using it, because it is one of the few things I can truly afford in bulk. So I'm hoping that it won't cause me not to get the full results and benefits of the plan.
Grocery shopping was difficult. I keep seeing all these foods that I just felt I "had" to have. Pizza, bread, chips, wraps, yogurt, pudding...the list goes on. Plus the bread baking at Subway was killing me. But I persevered. I stayed the course. I didn't buy myself anything off plan.
When I got home, I still wasn't hungry. So later in the day, I finally ate a banana, some blueberries, and some macadamia nuts. I love this combination. For supper, I poached some whiting fish and sprinkled it with my favorite--garlic salt. Yes, I have a problem. I need to branch out and try some new seasonings. I did try something new, though. I have yet to clarify my butter and I wanted a sweet potato. So I sliced it and saluted it lightly in olive oil. Then I spread it out on a plate, covered it in plastic wrap, and microwaved it for 5 minutes. It was perfect! I didn't need to put anything on it. I only managed to eat 1/2 my supper, since I had a late lunch, so I'll save the rest for breakfast tomorrow.
I will say, when I can't mindlessly eat anything I desire, I find I'm not hungry all the time. So I guess the terrible hunger I experienced pre-Whole30 was really in my head. Well...in all fairness, I might truly have been hungry because all the empty carbs I was feasting on weren't keeping me full. The protein I'm eating now really does fill me up faster and sticks with me longer.
So while it sucks that I can't have what I want, when I want, and how I want it, I know what I am doing is good for me, mind and body. So it is worth it.
Thursday, August 13, 2015
Day 4: #Whole30
August 13, 2015
It is Day 4 and I'm feeling fine. Not sure if it is because I'm eating healthy and staying on track or because I had the day off work. Maybe a combination of both. But my caffeine headache has yet to make an appearance today, which is awesome.
I had an appointment this morning and because I'm eating so many more fruits, nuts and vegetables lately, which is causing certain....ummm...issues, I decided it was in my best interest to stick with 2 small bananas for breakfast. I know I know. I'm supposed to have proteins, but I was nervous about my appointment, so my stomach just wasn't up for eggs. And because of the "issue", I didn't think nuts were a good choice until after the meeting. So bananas it was. Surprisingly, they kept me full.
I finally ate something more substantial for lunch around 1:00 p.m. I got a chicken chopped salad at Subway: grilled chicken, lettuce, spinach, tomatoes and cucumbers. When I got home, I added sliced almonds and oil/vinegar dressing. Yum. It wasn't until after I got home that I realized that I failed to ask how the grilled chicken was prepared. It looks like it was just grilled chicken without any added oil, so hopefully that was the case.
I did have another small banana later in the day. I really have to find something that I can have handy and ready when I need something small and quick. Pre-Whole30, I would have reached for yogurt or string cheese. Not being able to have dairy is a challenge. Maybe I'll hard boil some eggs to keep on hand for a snack attack.
Not sure what I'll have for supper tonight. Last night I did steak tips and cooked cabbage, but I'm really not in the mood for that again tonight. Maybe I'll just make a salad with the leftover steak tips. I'll have to think about it. The nice thing about having salad for supper is that I can pack one for my lunch the next day at the same time.
So I must say, at this point, I'm doing ok. I really want to get on the scales, but that is a "no no" so I'll "weight" and see. Lol. Anxious to see what tomorrow brings. Hopefully I'll feel even better!
It is Day 4 and I'm feeling fine. Not sure if it is because I'm eating healthy and staying on track or because I had the day off work. Maybe a combination of both. But my caffeine headache has yet to make an appearance today, which is awesome.
I had an appointment this morning and because I'm eating so many more fruits, nuts and vegetables lately, which is causing certain....ummm...issues, I decided it was in my best interest to stick with 2 small bananas for breakfast. I know I know. I'm supposed to have proteins, but I was nervous about my appointment, so my stomach just wasn't up for eggs. And because of the "issue", I didn't think nuts were a good choice until after the meeting. So bananas it was. Surprisingly, they kept me full.
I finally ate something more substantial for lunch around 1:00 p.m. I got a chicken chopped salad at Subway: grilled chicken, lettuce, spinach, tomatoes and cucumbers. When I got home, I added sliced almonds and oil/vinegar dressing. Yum. It wasn't until after I got home that I realized that I failed to ask how the grilled chicken was prepared. It looks like it was just grilled chicken without any added oil, so hopefully that was the case.
I did have another small banana later in the day. I really have to find something that I can have handy and ready when I need something small and quick. Pre-Whole30, I would have reached for yogurt or string cheese. Not being able to have dairy is a challenge. Maybe I'll hard boil some eggs to keep on hand for a snack attack.
Not sure what I'll have for supper tonight. Last night I did steak tips and cooked cabbage, but I'm really not in the mood for that again tonight. Maybe I'll just make a salad with the leftover steak tips. I'll have to think about it. The nice thing about having salad for supper is that I can pack one for my lunch the next day at the same time.
So I must say, at this point, I'm doing ok. I really want to get on the scales, but that is a "no no" so I'll "weight" and see. Lol. Anxious to see what tomorrow brings. Hopefully I'll feel even better!
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
Day 3: #Whole 30
August 12, 2015
It is Day 3 and I'm still hanging in there. Still having caffeine withdraw, so I'm headachy, but this too shall pass. I'm not used to drinking only water, so my sleep is being interrupted. A LOT. I know, TMI. But honesty is important when keeping a health log, right?
So far, I'm ok with what I am eating. I miss bread and convenience foods, but I'm not having MAJOR cravings. YET. I know that is just around the corner. Prepping food ahead of time helps. Being able to just come home and throw my dinner in the microwave is keeping me on track and preventing me from having a "just screw it" attitude. I still have to cook for my family, but my own meal is just minutes away. I'm actually not as hungry as I was pre-Whole30. All that protein and healthy fat is doing its job, I guess. :)
So,I'm feeling confident I can get through the next 27 days. I was more restricted right after my gastric bypass surgery and survived. Of course, I wasn't hungry then. But I can do this. I can. I will.
It is Day 3 and I'm still hanging in there. Still having caffeine withdraw, so I'm headachy, but this too shall pass. I'm not used to drinking only water, so my sleep is being interrupted. A LOT. I know, TMI. But honesty is important when keeping a health log, right?
So far, I'm ok with what I am eating. I miss bread and convenience foods, but I'm not having MAJOR cravings. YET. I know that is just around the corner. Prepping food ahead of time helps. Being able to just come home and throw my dinner in the microwave is keeping me on track and preventing me from having a "just screw it" attitude. I still have to cook for my family, but my own meal is just minutes away. I'm actually not as hungry as I was pre-Whole30. All that protein and healthy fat is doing its job, I guess. :)
So,I'm feeling confident I can get through the next 27 days. I was more restricted right after my gastric bypass surgery and survived. Of course, I wasn't hungry then. But I can do this. I can. I will.
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
Day # 2 #Whole30
August 11, 2015
So, it is Day 2 of The Whole 30. How
So, it is Day 2 of The Whole 30. How
does anyone survive without caffeine?
Seriously....I'm exhausted and I have a
headache from caffeine withdraw. I knew it was coming, but so soon?
Yikes! What will Day 3 feel like? Otherwise, I'm doing ok. I haven't wanted to kill anyone, yet, so that is good. I did think about wrestling one of my coworkers for her Hershey Miniatures, but I resisted temptation. Deciding what to eat for breakfast is the hardest. I don't feel like eggs everyday, which limits my choices, greatly. Today, I ate some grilled chicken pieces, macadamia nuts, and blueberries. My friend, Susan, gave me some home grown cherry tomatoes that were wonderful, which I ate at break. Lunch was cooked cabbage with chicken and a banana. Supper was a salad made of
tuna, spinach, blueberries, almonds, tomatoes, cucumbers and oil & vinegar.
Finding Whole30 compliant foods isn't as easy as I thought it would be. Everything has additives that aren't permissible. And finding nuts, etc, that contain nothing but the nut itself is expensive. It is a shame that healthy, wholesome food costs an arm and leg, but junk that pollutes our body is readily affordable and easy to access.
I know this is going to get harder. I also know it will be worth it. So I will just keep on keeping on.
Monday, August 10, 2015
The Whole30: Here I Come, Ready Or Not!!! #whole30
August 10, 2015
From the time I was little, I have had an issue with food. I want to eat....ALL. THE. TIME. I love the way food tastes, smells, and looks. I love the way food feels in my mouth. I love everything about it....except what it does to my health. I am overweight, have rosacea, am chronically fatigued, and never feel well. Food controls my life. I live to eat when I should eat to live. Frankly, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I have sleep apnea and Hashimoto's, to which I have been attributing my general malaise for years. However, my doctors disagree, claiming that my symptoms aren't due to either of these ailments. They claim my health issues are being optimally treated. So why do I feel so badly?
In a desperate search for relief, I brought my quest for an answer to Facebook. I questioned whether going gluten free would help my skin, my fatigue, and my stomach ailments. I was offered a lot of different opinions, but the one that intrigued me the most was from a friend, Erica, who mentioned she was starting The Whole30. So I logged onto Whole30.com to check out the program. And while I was intimated, I was very impressed with the results.
The basic premise is that for 30 days you eat only protein, vegetables, healthy fats, and some fruit. No legumes (including peanuts), gluten, grains, soy, dairy, sugar, artificial sweetener, or alcohol. You are encouraged to use healthy fats likes coconut oil, olive oil, nuts, seeds, olives, and avocados. You can use clarified butter or ghee. No beans are permitted except green beans, sugar snap peas, and snow peas. Focusing on protein, vegetables, and healthy fats, while avoiding food in the other categories allows your body to heal from chronic inflammation and other ailments. It is also purported to increase energy, sound sleep, and reduce cravings. After the 30 days, you gradually reintroduce the other foods into your diet and see how they affect you. If your go back to feeling sickly or sluggish after reintroducing a certain food, then you know it is best to avoid or limit that food in the future.
At first, I thought "NO WAY! I can't give up bread for 30 days!". Then I realized that in terms of a lifetime, 30 days is nothing. Is it worth giving up 30 days of uncontrolled eating for possibly figuring out what is causing my issues? Heck yeah!
So I purchased the two books above, stocked up on Whole30 compliant foods, and started the program today. I miss my iced tea with Splenda the most, so far. And bread. I really miss bread. I have been a little headachy from caffeine withdraw. I understand it is going to get worse before it gets better, but it will be so worth it if it breaks my dependency on artificial sweetener, curbs my cravings, eliminate inflammation, alleviates my fatigue, clears up my skin, and gives me energy. I'm so excited to see what the next 30 days holds.
Wish me luck!
From the time I was little, I have had an issue with food. I want to eat....ALL. THE. TIME. I love the way food tastes, smells, and looks. I love the way food feels in my mouth. I love everything about it....except what it does to my health. I am overweight, have rosacea, am chronically fatigued, and never feel well. Food controls my life. I live to eat when I should eat to live. Frankly, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I have sleep apnea and Hashimoto's, to which I have been attributing my general malaise for years. However, my doctors disagree, claiming that my symptoms aren't due to either of these ailments. They claim my health issues are being optimally treated. So why do I feel so badly?
In a desperate search for relief, I brought my quest for an answer to Facebook. I questioned whether going gluten free would help my skin, my fatigue, and my stomach ailments. I was offered a lot of different opinions, but the one that intrigued me the most was from a friend, Erica, who mentioned she was starting The Whole30. So I logged onto Whole30.com to check out the program. And while I was intimated, I was very impressed with the results.
The basic premise is that for 30 days you eat only protein, vegetables, healthy fats, and some fruit. No legumes (including peanuts), gluten, grains, soy, dairy, sugar, artificial sweetener, or alcohol. You are encouraged to use healthy fats likes coconut oil, olive oil, nuts, seeds, olives, and avocados. You can use clarified butter or ghee. No beans are permitted except green beans, sugar snap peas, and snow peas. Focusing on protein, vegetables, and healthy fats, while avoiding food in the other categories allows your body to heal from chronic inflammation and other ailments. It is also purported to increase energy, sound sleep, and reduce cravings. After the 30 days, you gradually reintroduce the other foods into your diet and see how they affect you. If your go back to feeling sickly or sluggish after reintroducing a certain food, then you know it is best to avoid or limit that food in the future.
At first, I thought "NO WAY! I can't give up bread for 30 days!". Then I realized that in terms of a lifetime, 30 days is nothing. Is it worth giving up 30 days of uncontrolled eating for possibly figuring out what is causing my issues? Heck yeah!
So I purchased the two books above, stocked up on Whole30 compliant foods, and started the program today. I miss my iced tea with Splenda the most, so far. And bread. I really miss bread. I have been a little headachy from caffeine withdraw. I understand it is going to get worse before it gets better, but it will be so worth it if it breaks my dependency on artificial sweetener, curbs my cravings, eliminate inflammation, alleviates my fatigue, clears up my skin, and gives me energy. I'm so excited to see what the next 30 days holds.
Wish me luck!
Thursday, July 30, 2015
"Landline" by Rainbow Rowell
July 30, 2015
One of my main problems with my 90 mile a day commute is staying awake while driving. Fortunately, my friend, Susan, turned me onto the joys of audio books. The narrator keeps me awake by taking me into a whole new world of full of interesting plot twists and fictional characters.
Tonight, I finished listening to "Landline" by Rainbow Rowell. It was excellent!!! This is definitely an author whose work I want to read more. And Rebecca Lowman's narration truly brought the characters to life.
I won't give away the details of the book, but the basic gist of it is that the main characters, Georgie and Neil, are a married couple who, while they still love each other, have grown apart. Separated at Christmas, Georgie tries calling Neil, but her cell phone is dead. So she calls him on the old landline in her childhood room. Instead of reaching Neil in 2013, though, she reaches Neil in 1998.
While totally unrealistic, the story was charming, the characters were very likable, and the narration drew you in and didn't let you go. In fact, I had trouble getting out of my car in the evenings when I arrived home--I wanted to keep driving so I could hear more.
This is a book I would definitely recommend! *****
Landline
Author: Rainbow Rowell
Narrator: Rebecca Lowman
Unabridged: 8 hr
Published: 07/08/2014
Publisher: Macmillan Audio
Tonight, I finished listening to "Landline" by Rainbow Rowell. It was excellent!!! This is definitely an author whose work I want to read more. And Rebecca Lowman's narration truly brought the characters to life.
I won't give away the details of the book, but the basic gist of it is that the main characters, Georgie and Neil, are a married couple who, while they still love each other, have grown apart. Separated at Christmas, Georgie tries calling Neil, but her cell phone is dead. So she calls him on the old landline in her childhood room. Instead of reaching Neil in 2013, though, she reaches Neil in 1998.
While totally unrealistic, the story was charming, the characters were very likable, and the narration drew you in and didn't let you go. In fact, I had trouble getting out of my car in the evenings when I arrived home--I wanted to keep driving so I could hear more.
This is a book I would definitely recommend! *****
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Life's a Beach---OCNJ 2015
July 28, 2015
I'm sorry to report, I don't get out much. My husband's idea of a vacation is going primitive camping--you know, dressing in garb from the hunter/trapper era and having nothing modern outside the tent. Not exactly my idea of a fun time, especially since I'm totally grossed out by port-o-potties. Since we have been married, Paul and I went to the Pocono's on our honeymoon, we took a weekend trip to Bedford, PA with our son, Jonathan, and I went on three bus trips (two trips to Washington DC and one trip to Pittsburgh). That is it. El finite.
Prior to getting married, I went to Ocean City Maryland twice. The first time was with one of my best friends in 1992. The second time was with my boyfriend, later to be husband, in 1993. I was in Heaven. And I was naive enough to think that our going to the beach together was a sign of many beach trips to come. Unfortunately, after taking our nuptials, I learned Paul doesn't even like going to the shore. Talk about heartbreak!
So this summer, when my dear friend Heidi invited my son, Jonathan, and I along to the Ocean City New Jersey with her and her daughters, it was like a dream come true. Finally....another trip to the beach after 22 years!!! With great friends!!!! I couldn't wait!!! I'm sure I drove Heidi crazy with all my questions.
Finally the big day arrived. On June 24th, we headed to the beach for the weekend.
We stayed at the Ocean Breeze Hotel. The price was decent and the place was clean upon arrival. It was actually more spacious than I thought it would be. The only issues that I really had with the place was that there weren't any blankets on the beds (just the sheet and duvet), the was no place to hang our bath towels, and there was no maid service while we were there. Otherwise, our stay was very pleasant. Breakfast of cold cereal, bagels, pastry, coffee, and juice was provided daily. And the pool was small, but very refreshing.
After unpacking we headed to the boardwalk. The tantalizing smell of boardwalk fries, the sugary scent of waffles, and the aroma of sunscreen mingled with the salty smell of the breeze wafting off the water. I love that smell! Eventually, we meandered down to the water, walking barefoot in the waves. Unfortunately, the ocean itself smells like dead fish, but that goes with the territory. The water was beautiful. Just being there gave me a feeling of relaxation and peace that I hadn't felt in years.
For dinner that night, we headed to the Hula Grill. We ladies indulged on Huli Huli cheese fries and rice with Huli Huli sauce. My son had the Hula Burger. It was delicious. I can't even began to explain Huli Huli sauce other than to say it is amazing.
My only regret was not buying a bottle to take home!
Later that evening, we stopped for Polish Water Ice....another delight I had never experienced. I opted for the lemon flavored ice---delish!
After some shopping and people watching, we headed back to the hotel for a swim. Heaven!
The next day brought even more new experiences. We went to Booketeria Two to trade in books and pick up some new titles. I have to say, I love that place!!!! Together, Jonathan and I bought 18 books. I can see why my friends go there every trip. The selection is awesome!
Then we did some shopping and walked around the Tabernacle and Memorial Gardens.....
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It was a glorious day spent with wonderful friends, laughing, joking, and bonding!! It was wonderful.
We went to Picchini's for lunch. I think the picture says a 1000 words....all ending in YUM!
Afterwards, we spent more time shopping on the boardwalk. Jonathan and I got ice cream at TCBY. It was a gorgeous day! Hot, but the ocean breeze felt wonderful. Later, we returned to the hotel to read our new books and nap.
Unfortunately, the next morning, it was time to head home. Our beach vacation was over much too soon.
But we stopped at Dickie's BBQ in Lancaster, PA on the way home. The brisket, baked potato casserole and fried onion tanglers were to die for!!! Can we say "gained 20 lbs"!!!!????
The last stop before home was the Disney Store. They have such cute stuff there.
Finally we arrived home around 3:30 p.m. Unpacking wore me out. I was dozing by 7:00 p.m. and in bed by 8:00. Back to the old grind the next day.
This trip was simply amazing and I thank my friends Heidi, Ashley and Gracie for including Jonathan and I. We had a wonderful time and I am so blessed that they are part of our lives.
In addition to having a wonderful time, I had an epiphany. I need to start living my life now....not keep waiting until I have more money or lose a lot of weight. Tomorrow isn't promised. I need to enjoy life, experience new places, and make memories while I have the chance.
Thank you, Heidi, for showing me this. You have not only taught me to expand my horizons, but to appreciate everything along the way.
Thursday, March 26, 2015
So Where DO Broken Hearts Go? Zayn Malik Leaves One Direction. What Next?
March 26, 2015
Yesterday, One Direction fandom was rocked by the news that Zayn Malik has left the band. Hearts across the world were truly broken, mine included. Though I was anticipating the split, I never dreamed it would happen so early in the year. I was at lunch, mindlessly scrolling through Twitter, when I read the news. My stomach dropped to my knees. I was just in shock and sick at heart. What next?
I'll be honest. I have been thinking for a while now that when the bands' contact expires later this year, that the boys will decide go in their own directions. There has been so much publicity about tension in the group, the guys wanting to pursue their own careers, etc, that the a split almost seems inevitable. But I truly believed they would stay together until the end of the year. I felt we had at least that long. But now Zayn has left, paying major bucks to break his contract. Will this set a precedence? I certainly hope not.
There has been so much media drama in recent months over the fate of 1D. According to the media, there has been tension between Harry and Zayn recently. Apparently Zayn is sick of Harry lecturing him and Harry is tired of the lack of maturity Zayn has shown (especially in regards to the video that was leaked of Zayn and Louis lighting a joint in Peru last year, as well as Zayn leaving before a concert ended due to "illness"). Liam has been criticized in the media recently over his drinking. Zayn had the whole blow up over "cheating" on Perrie with a fan. Pictures of Louis kissing someone other than Eleanor were quickly explained as occurring after they broke up, but still caused a lot of speculation. The only one not involved in all the drama has been Niall.
I think the thing that saddens me the most is that what drew me to One Direction in the first place was the "brotherhood" and camaraderie that was portrayed since the bands' inception. Now, with all the media hoopla, I wonder how much of it was real and how much was for the benefit of the fans. I feel deep down it was real, at least in the beginning, but now that they are older and they travel separately, stay in separate hotels, etc, I wonder if they still feel "as close as brothers"? The loss of the illusion hurts almost as much as Zayn's leaving. At least for me.
Social media causes a lot of confusion, as well. First, it gives fans a sense of connection with the boys that really isn't there. We still only see what they want us to see. We don't have a real glimpse of their hearts and minds. Secondly, so much gets misconstrued by the fans and the press, so a lot of what is reported as fact turns out to be just perception. So, we really don't have the inside scoop that we think we do.
The whole thing just makes me sad. I feel for Zayn, because a lot of hurt led him to this decision, though I think it was in the works long before last week (see...social media makes me think I know more than I truly do). I really feel bad for Harry, Niall, Liam and Louis, though. They are the ones left behind. They are the ones that had no say in the decision. And they are the ones left to pick up the pieces and mourn the loss of what was. I wish them luck and pray they don't let this bring them down to the point of giving it up.
So....fans' hearts are breaking. The boys' hearts have to be breaking. So, where DO broken hearts go? Can One Direction and their fandom truly heal from this? Only time will tell......
Yesterday, One Direction fandom was rocked by the news that Zayn Malik has left the band. Hearts across the world were truly broken, mine included. Though I was anticipating the split, I never dreamed it would happen so early in the year. I was at lunch, mindlessly scrolling through Twitter, when I read the news. My stomach dropped to my knees. I was just in shock and sick at heart. What next?
I'll be honest. I have been thinking for a while now that when the bands' contact expires later this year, that the boys will decide go in their own directions. There has been so much publicity about tension in the group, the guys wanting to pursue their own careers, etc, that the a split almost seems inevitable. But I truly believed they would stay together until the end of the year. I felt we had at least that long. But now Zayn has left, paying major bucks to break his contract. Will this set a precedence? I certainly hope not.
There has been so much media drama in recent months over the fate of 1D. According to the media, there has been tension between Harry and Zayn recently. Apparently Zayn is sick of Harry lecturing him and Harry is tired of the lack of maturity Zayn has shown (especially in regards to the video that was leaked of Zayn and Louis lighting a joint in Peru last year, as well as Zayn leaving before a concert ended due to "illness"). Liam has been criticized in the media recently over his drinking. Zayn had the whole blow up over "cheating" on Perrie with a fan. Pictures of Louis kissing someone other than Eleanor were quickly explained as occurring after they broke up, but still caused a lot of speculation. The only one not involved in all the drama has been Niall.
I think the thing that saddens me the most is that what drew me to One Direction in the first place was the "brotherhood" and camaraderie that was portrayed since the bands' inception. Now, with all the media hoopla, I wonder how much of it was real and how much was for the benefit of the fans. I feel deep down it was real, at least in the beginning, but now that they are older and they travel separately, stay in separate hotels, etc, I wonder if they still feel "as close as brothers"? The loss of the illusion hurts almost as much as Zayn's leaving. At least for me.
Social media causes a lot of confusion, as well. First, it gives fans a sense of connection with the boys that really isn't there. We still only see what they want us to see. We don't have a real glimpse of their hearts and minds. Secondly, so much gets misconstrued by the fans and the press, so a lot of what is reported as fact turns out to be just perception. So, we really don't have the inside scoop that we think we do.
The whole thing just makes me sad. I feel for Zayn, because a lot of hurt led him to this decision, though I think it was in the works long before last week (see...social media makes me think I know more than I truly do). I really feel bad for Harry, Niall, Liam and Louis, though. They are the ones left behind. They are the ones that had no say in the decision. And they are the ones left to pick up the pieces and mourn the loss of what was. I wish them luck and pray they don't let this bring them down to the point of giving it up.
So....fans' hearts are breaking. The boys' hearts have to be breaking. So, where DO broken hearts go? Can One Direction and their fandom truly heal from this? Only time will tell......
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